i think the only thing that really hurts me nowadays is knowing that there are other people going through the same thing i am and have been for as long as i can remember. no one deserves such pain, even if i am a hypocrite and accept it all because i do deserve it. but really, if anyone, you all dont (and all of you know who you are)… i really hope you can find it in yourselves to trust someone because thats the first step to getting better… trusting in someone to help you and opening up a bit. there is always someone waiting with open arms for you, and i will be more than happy to be that someone.